Autism: Does This Sound Familiar?

As I was befuddled regarding Tyler’s behavior and frustrated about the situation, I wrote a little poem to vent my emotions.  Does this sound familiar?

My son is Autistic I don’t understand…
Why development stopped and speech never began…

Why can’t he see my face, my eyes?
Why the blank stare and the frustrated cries?

Commands he can’t follow and words he ignores…
Perhaps he sees reason in my mirrored glass doors…

The music of videos, Barney and Mother Goose
Absorb him in a world that I only intrude…

Why does he love things with circles & lines?
Why can’t I teach him songs and rhymes?

Why does he rock so rhythmic and posed?
Why can’t he listen to the storybook I chose?

Why does he respond so badly to change?
Why do others look on and think he is strange?

“He’s Autistic,” I say, “he doesn’t understand,”
And compassion comes over them as they offer a hand…

How can I get through the hurt that I feel?
That my son won’t fit in a world that’s so real…

Then a dimpled smile and his bright sparkling eyes, let me
Know there’s a happiness within this disguise…

The cars he lines up, and the colors he scribbles…
The circles he turns as he giggles and giggles…

At the end of the day, I say “Goodnight Prayers” …
And he pushes my face with eyes unaware…

He jabbers at night, in the dark corner with friends…
But I can’t see them, they’re just pretend.

Oh, how do I teach him in this world he has hidden?
Lord, help me to cope with this special son You have given…

If ever I needed Your Wisdom, It’s now…
I know You can reach him. Please, Lord, show me how.

~Vicki Stoddart

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